I have neglected this blog for a while, and I’m feeling ready to be back. I’m not sure how often I will post, but I want to update what’s been going on since I have been gone. The biggest news we have is ( no, I’m not pregnant) we are moving to Vegas baby! I wish I could say we were moving to Utah, but this is as close as it’s going to get for a while….Now, if you really know me you might be in shock that we are moving back there. Yes, we have lived there before and it was the worst time of our lives. A little back story for those who aren’t familiar with our story.
John went to PA school in Henderson….During that time John was diagnosed with epilepsy….I had Sophie a day before his first day of PA school in Utah. Thankfully, he was there for her birth, but sadly, he had to leave me the day after… that first week he was in a car accident ( thanks to a seizure) our apartment flooded and we were apart from each other. When you have a baby your hormones are out of control that first week so add all of that on top of everything and I was a mess. My life literally changed in a blink of an eye. Everything I thought life was going to be was now so uncertain and I was terrified for what the future would hold…John’s seizures were happening 5 to 10 times a day and medication wasn’t helping much. John couldn’t drive even drive. After 16 months of living in Henderson we decided to move back to Utah for John’s  clinical rotations….He was still not seizure free and we were really wondering if becoming a PA was going to actually be possible. I mean, you can’t practice medicine when you are constantly having seizures. I also just want to say how much I admire John for not giving up. He just pushed through. If it were me I think I would quit until things were under control. But, John started his first rotation at a family practice and the doctor there was so understanding and amazing. He was able to get him into a wonderful Neurologist and John’s seizures were gone within that first appointment. If you knew how bad things were with his seizures you would know what a miracle that was. My endless prayers had been answered… I’m still in awe of the miracle that took place. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t thank god and think about how amazing it is that John’s seizure free…

Those seizures stole a lot from me and John, but I can finally say that going through that time has been a blessing and has changed me for the better. Please, Never take your health or the health of your family for granted, it’s such a gift. But here we are almost 5 years seizure free and a lot of healing has taken place during this time. I suffered with REALLY bad anxiety and PTSD after watching John have seizures everyday. John was lucky in a way bc he was checked out during the time he was having seizures, so he didn’t have to witness how scary they got. But, I’m doing so much better now….

Now you might be wondering why the heck we are moving back….Well, I will tell you why. It all started with me. It’s been really hard on me being so far away from family.. I have really prayed about where home is going to be for our family.  We built a house last year and I thought by doing that Myrtle Beach would feel like home and it still doesn’t…So one night I had this dream we were living in Vegas and we were happy and at peace and it was home…..So, the next day I told John to look and see if the company he works for had any job openings there. Sure enough there was…so he applied and the rest is history. You might think we are crazy, but it just makes more sense for us to be close to family. And the job in Vegas is great so we are taking a leap of faith and moving!
We recently visited Vegas to make sure we really wanted to move back… I was a little nervous it would trigger some anxiety, but I felt completely at peace. We will be a good 25 mins away from Henderson, so I feel like it will be a totally different experience. I will probably avoid going back to where we lived for a bit. I’m not ready for that, yet.
But, We are so excited to only be 5 hours from family now. No more expensive and long flights to Utah. Now, we just need to sell the house we built, and then, we will be Vegas bound.

I will say I’m starting to get sad about moving. Myrtle beach has been so good to us. The people we have met and become friends with have been such a blessing. I have never wanted to live away from family, but I’m so grateful for the experiences we have had bc we left our comfort zone. I highly recommend it. Well, I have more thoughts but that’s all for tonight❤️